Today was my first day back from maternity leave. It was not the best day. To begin with, it was cold (like high of 48F cold) and rainy all day. The baby woke me up at 5. I nursed him for a while, was able to get up and use the bathroom, and then checked my phone for a bit and was just about to get up and be productive when the Peanut woke up, and he wanted to nurse as well. I heard C up and getting ready for school. Around 6:20, I noticed I hadn’t heard any noise from Girl-E. I freed myself from the toddler and went to check on her. I asked C if she was awake, and he said yes, but when I called her name, I got no answer, and when I went into her room, she was fast asleep. I woke her up, and she made the bus–but her brother got his phone taken away for lying when Dude said he’d done the same thing yesterday.
Whether it was due to the rocky start to my morning or my anxiety about returning to work (or some of both), I was in a grumpy mood the rest of the day, and definitely not the kind of parent I want to be, which always makes me feel terrible.