It’s about 8:30pm on the east coast of the US, New Year’s Eve 2009. I’m just 3 1/2 hours away from 2010, which could shape up to be one of my most monumental years yet. I’m looking forward to it. Ten is my lucky number, and this year has three (10+10=20, +10)! Although I already have quite a few projects and interests to more than fill my little free time, I decided that I would start this blog, as well as a Twitter profile, in order to chronicle the journey I’m going to start this year.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve wanted to be a mom. I’m a natural with kids, have been babysitting since I was 11, and just have always had that yearning. I used to say that once I got to my late 20s, if I hadn’t gotten married, I’d start a family on my own. But my late 20s came, and as it would happen, I was back at school, getting my graduate degree. So here I am, at 30 3/4, finally settled into a secure job and a decent living situation…and still single. I’ve decided the time has come to start a family on my own.
I’m still not sure how that’s going to happen. Future posts will focus on the different possibilities, the process for each, and how my profession influences this decision, as well as my general thoughts and feelings about singleness, motherhood and combing the two. In order to allow myself the freedom to write openly about this journey, I’ve decided to remain anonymous, at least for now.
I’m nervous and excited for 2010–the year I may finally become a mama–to begin.